“Kathi, I cannot hear a heartbeat, which means your baby has died.” I was 20. Nothing in my life could have prepared me for that moment—nothing. Unable to comprehend the suddenness of my son’s death, I was physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually shattered into tiny pieces of devastating sorrow, doubt, anger, fear, and shame.
My
“Kathi, I cannot hear a heartbeat, which means your baby has died.” I was 20. Nothing in my life could have prepared me for that moment—nothing. Unable to comprehend the suddenness of my son’s death, I was physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually shattered into tiny pieces of devastating sorrow, doubt, anger, fear, and shame.
My journey to freedom took decades. It involved healing practices such as bodywork and dance to release the powerful shock, despair, anger, and shame (now recognized as PTSD) triggered by Jason’s death, as well as journaling to express the words I could neither speak nor bear to hear at that time.
But what needed healing most was my soul. In a moment of complete surrender, I discovered Divine Love—a love that is eternal, unwavering, and unconditional, even in my darkest moments. When my daughter, Amanda, died in my arms at 38, it was Divine Love that allowed me to fall apart once again. This time, I fully expressed every moment of my grief—then, now, and for the rest of my life.
I have written a memoir about the deaths of my children, created a Sacred Circle for Grieving Mothers, and embraced my calling as a Spiritual and Grief Coach to support you.
You have lost a child - born or unborn. You deserve to be seen and heard. You deserve to be free of the trauma that prevents you from grieving and living a life of love.
Spiritual Counselor, Grief Coach, Reiki Master, Freedom Coach©️, Meditation Teacher, Trauma-Relilient Heart-Math Course Completion
Mother:
Amanda, 10/1980 – 12/2019
Jason, born with a silent heart 9/1979
Two miscarried Angel Babies